Tuesday, January 17, 2012
step by step
Sorry ya'll I just did not have the energy to write yesterday. I have been trying to listen to myself a little more and take a bit of the pressure off. I have a lot of great opportunities going on around me which is wonderful but with that I can easily allow myself to get totally stressed out and turn the pressure cooker on. And that never helps, it just makes things worse.
I know that part of my stress is residual from the move. I was talking to a friend in Brooklyn yesterday and through that conversation I had to face all the fear I still have attached to leaving. I have great opportunities now but as an artist you are also always looking for the great things in the future and there is a huge part of me that fears that opportunities might dry up now that I am no longer in the city. Intellectually I argue that, I know that this is not the case, especially since I will continue to go back to do things regularly and be aware of the scene, and know so many amazing and successful folks not anywhere near the city. But the gnawing thought still sits there as a little layer of fear that I have yet to shed.
But alas I do feel good progress coming in my work, thought not necessarily quick enough for my deadlines. But I am SO close to finishing my most recent larger text piece, took a new photo this weekend for a narrative portrait that will be gorgeous, got a rough, rough draft for my article written, and am really excited to get back to working on my image based works (though the break from them was SO nice.) So step by step we all move forward.
Posted by Joetta M. at 6:37 AM